Fung\’s bit of the Universe.

I still remember the day when he said that he had to leave.

The 9th of June, 2008.

I thought it was another one of his lame jokes, and so, I laughed it off. But looking over my shoulder, and seeing his expressionless face, I knew he wasn’t joking this time. Someone close to you, telling you that they were leaving to move to another state isn’t something that happens everyday. And most of the time, it doesn’t ever happen in some people’s lives.

But the one thing I want to know is, how are you supposed to react? Was I supposed to break down into tears, and never talk to him again? Or was I supposed to say “Oh, that’s great, I’ll miss you”, smile and pretend everything was going to be okay, when I knew that things were definitely going to change? A normal person would have probably gone with the latter of the two, but being me, I did neither.

Instead, I sat there for about a good half an hour, thinking of what I should do. I looked at him, smiled weakly, and we went on walking around the park, like we were doing before he broke the news. But the whole time, I remember thinking one thing, and one thing only.

“Why me?”

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I had been counting down the days, in hope that the day would never come, but eventually the day had arrived.

The 28th July, 2008

That was the last chance I had to spend with my best friend.

Since he has left, I’ve learnt more about myself than I have over the past 3 years. I’ve learnt that to let go, doesn’t mean to forget, to not think about it, or to ignore it. It’s not about dwelling in the past, blocking memories, or thinking sad thoughts. Letting go isn’t about giving in, giving up, or about loss.

To let go is to cherish memories, to overcome and move on. It’s about having an open mind, and having confidence for the future. It’s about learning, experiencing, and growing up. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.

To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and let yourself free.

This is my first blog post, so here’s a little bit about me.
I am “Fung”, a 15 year old girl with nothing worth while to do with her time. I absolutely adore those dorky awesome television shows on the disney channel. I am obsessive, shy and creative. I have big city dreams, I love my friends, I prefer cold crisp mornings to a sunny day. I don’t think there is one person for everyone; I think we’ve got a choice. I’d rather get a take-out with friends than go out for a fancy meal. I enjoy school, I just hate waking up so early. Immature jokes make me laugh. I like diet coke in a can, but prefer normal coke in a bottle. My music taste changes like the weather.

I can’t helping singing out to:
Jonas Brothers, All Time Low, Boys Like Girls, Mayday Parade, Forever The Sickest Kids, Gym Class Heroes, Hit The Lights, Brighter Brightest, The Academy Is…, Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana, Selena Gomez, Jesse McCartney, Metro Station, The Rocket Summer, The Killers, Cute is what we aim for, The Maine, We The Kings, Dashboard Confessional, Kisschasy, The Morning Light, Yellowcard, Every Avenue and that’s just to name a few.

I never miss an episode of:
The Amazing Race, Survivor, Hannah Montana, Wizards of Waverly Place, The Suite Life of Zac and Cody/Suit Life on Deck, NCIS, One Tree Hill, Gossip Girl, Make Me A Supermodel, Prison Break, Life of Ryan, Grey’s Anatomy and 90210.

So that’s me, take it or leave it.